I just logged on to my Facebook profile after a very long time of not being on it. I just got lazy updating it and no one ever seems to leave me any comments on there anyways. I only go there to check out my high school crush’s profile. Yes, yes I know its pathetic. But what can I do? Btw, he’s still hot. LOL.
I go to my myspace just because everyone else logs on it. I also have a Friendster profile. What is Friendster you ask? Friendster is the one that started it all. It’s the site that started the social networking genre. I didn’t really know what Myspace was until my youngest sister asked me to join it. I’ve been a member of Friendster for 5 years now. This is how I found all of my friends, classmates and all of my cousins back in the Philippines. I’m actually thankful for this site because without it, I wouldn’t reconnect with my friend Anne from San Diego or I wouldn’t know that about a dozen of my grade school classmates live here in the United States as well.
Whenever I log on there someone I know back in the days seems to be getting married and then having babies the next. Which is totally strange of how I knew them back then. Like you wouldn’t see them getting married or having babies at 25. Like my grade school best friend, I was way beyond shocked and in disbelief when I found out that she was pregnant at 21. Now, her whole world is her son Lex who is also my godson. God, I am getting old. I keep forgetting that I’m going to be 25 in a couple of months. I know most people my age don’t really care that they’re turning another year older. Me? I’m scared shit.
The way my life is going on right now, I realize that everyone’s ahead of me. I’m stuck in a job I like but my hours suck. I wish I could go back to school but I’m still saving up. I still haven’t met that person that I want to be with for the rest of my life because I think, I mean I know I live in the wrong state and the men I meet here all have one thing on their minds which is sex. I realize that I’m not financially ready for anything. I want to have a child but I really can’t have one considering I still haven’t met that right person to make it with. But as they say, everything happens for a reason. And if all these things should happen to me, then so be it. I guess I’ll just wait until something actually good happens.
But by the looks of it, I don’t think that’ll happen this year. 
